Hope
There is this light at the end of tunnel which keeps me going. It gives me hop and enlighten my soul.
Life changes very fast, it takes you the places which you never imagined were existing. For my whole life, I kept working hard to the point where I felt I can no longer differentiate between who I am as a person and what are my achievements. As we go through our various phases of life, we realize that somehow society has damaged the little curious child we had in ourselves and turned him to a young critic who now doubts everything and can no longer define himself without labels. I somewhere read that go to first graders and start talking about the stars and galaxies and look how their imaginations get expanded & than go to high schoolers and notice their response. School did something horrible to the bright individuals. As a child, I always fantasied studying in good schools. Schools would look to me as a place of enlightenment and knowledge. I kept ignoring all the negative impacts school can have on me, until I reached at the point where I had to choose between my identity as a human and the learning environment. University really does a whole new thing to you.
You dont need to be wonderful or amazing you can just exist in the universe as flowers and plants, ocean and mountains and trees and stars.
As I was living my life, I came across a unique opportunity to teach an underprivileged community. I often wonder how we humans have created words like equality, underprivileged and poor. Its amazing how we have these deep rooted concepts of poor and rich, compassion and courage, grit and resilience. Is a person who has $10 and contentment will be poor than a person with $100 and no contentment? The one thing that I understood really hard way is that Allah is very justly. May be while going on a road, you may see poor child begging on street and think how oppressed and poor he is & on your way back home you start navigating the ways is you can may remove his hardship and misery. But the real question here is that, is his misery really a misery and are you more kinder than God to that kid. Once we understand this concept, we realize that we all are blessed in various ways, with pain and misery and with blessings and bounties. But somewhere along the way, we developed this idea of God’s punishment. We think that God is punishing us. Sometimes we often try to sugar coat it by saying that he is testing us but because we are not channelizing the frustration, it somehow reflects inwardly. We start questioning ourselves and our relationship with God. We start questioning our gratefulness and our attitude. But once we stop, step back and look at the whole picture, we realize that we are just a tiny creature in the cosmos. We are not the axis of universe. We are just here like flowers and trees. The only thing God ever wanted from us is to live life. It was to live life peacefully. Our mind is however, somehow attracted to toxicity and negativity because we have been training it like that due to our survival extinct. Because somewhere in the way of evolution and timeline, we thought that we are all alone thrown in this universe cruelly. Some of us started turning to individuals who donot care about anything not even themselves. Some became self centered thinking that we have to keep ourselves lie and no one else will. And some of us excelled in that and moved to becoming savior for mankind and society. While all of the individuals are neither bad nor good but somehow they lost the essence of being, BEING HUMAN AND EXISTING IN THIS UNIVERSE. Our job was simple, it was to just live in this universe, and trusting that everything is actually working out fir us, just like it is for plants and flowers.
Imagine a sunflower, comparing himself to other sunflowers, constantly criticizing himself, analyzing how much beautiful of a sunflower he is, trying to worry about global warming and other sunflowers who are little and somewhat weaker.
Does it seem funny, how would you think it will impact the sunflower, for me it will be resulted in withering of sunflower and loss of a beautiful sunflower from the universe. The universe is actually already designed to make you live. The real problem rises when we start considering ourselves some powerful beings and choose various difficult paths. The truth of being is actually that we all are some humble beings, the only thing we need is to be humble and present. We are exactly how we are supposed to be, the problem happens when we try to change ourselves or others to better fit in this universe. God says that he created man in the best for, imagine someone playing with the cook food of a special chef thinking that he will make it more delicious. What will it do to the food, it will be ultimately spoiled, until the chef comes back and correct it. We, not only interfere with our existence, but also extend this to other creatures of universe which results into imbalance and disorder. Since years, I used to ponder on why would God send human to earth as he may destroy the beautiful planet and life. This was the question that angel asked and though I really dont know the whole wisdom behind it, but I know that God taught man knowledge and letters. We have this innate programming, which can help us thrive in this planet. Our bodies ae designed in the perfect manner, our neural networks contain all the information and our heart knows all the ways. The only problem happen when we try to interfere with our growth and give our selves away to some other entity, while you may believe in God or not, just realizing the fact that you are just in this universe to do your part really takes to the long way.
Just imagine yourself as the sunflower, drink well, have sunshine and bloom.
